Note: Christopher e-mailed me at work yesterday and said he missed reading my blog. This made me smile. It's nice to know my soon-to-be hubby reads my silly little blog.
Speaking of my soon-to-be hubby, I am going to be married in 6 weeks!!! As of tomorrow, I can say my wedding is next month. I have tried not to make my blog all about my wedding, and as you can tell from the lack of blogging, I have been way too busy to post anything!
My friend Leslie over at Sharp Stick in the Eye posted about having good intentions when it becomes to being a mommy. She has a really sweet baby, Juliette. Be sure to go and read her blog and check out the cute pics of "Jules" as she calls her. ANYWAY, Leslie wrote about being in adequate and that the truth is she it and she needs Jesus and grace. Don't we all?
It got me to thinking about my good intentions of being a wife. I don't always have groceries in the house, sometimes I want a bowl of cereal for dinner. If I don't always have a home-cooked dinner on the table does that make me a bad wife? In my mind, it does although I know it doesn't and he doesn't care. I have a kitchen cabinets that need to get cleaned out, that I haven't found time. My pantry needs to be organized. I still have Christmas decorations I just put in the closet because I forgot to put them up with the boxes. I have good intentions of reading my Bible more and Facebooking and Pinteresting less. The point of all this is that I absolutely agree with Leslie. None of this matters. We all need Jesus and grace and the Holy Spirit to guide us. I am inadequate but Jesus loves me inspite of this. Christopher and I have already started to make a conscious effort to have a God-first marriage. This excites me about becoming a wife.
Sorry for such a deep post. Just been thinking about this a lot lately, and after reading Leslie's post I see I'm not the only one who wrestles with this.
